8 months and a move

A view I will never tire of. Dream feeding and holding her booby. 8 months and still going strong. 

I've held off writing for a while as we have hit another landmark, a move into her own room. To be honest it happened about 5-6 weeks ago, completely unplanned. Completely led by Freya. For a while I had been carrying her upstairs asleep, putting her in her cot while I got ready for bed, then waking and moving her. One night I looked at her and saw how comfortable she was. She had more space than the crib, and appeared happy. I thought she looks ready, let's try and see. I spent the next hour in tears that she wasn't with me and half the night listening for every little sound. She woke at 2am, happy jabbering. I went and got her fed her in our room and put her down in her crib. 

The next day I had to remind myself this wasn't about me, it was what Freya wanted. So I moved her room around and got the nursing chair as comfy as possible. The next night I took her up and fed her in her room and put her down sleeping. She slept through as she normally would and woke up giggling in the morning! I spent the first week in tears missing her, constantly reminding myself she was happy. Not once has she appeared upset about the move. 

Fast forward until now. I've managed to gradually move her bedtime forward so she now goes to sleep between 9-9:30. Occasionally earlier. She often sleeps through to nearly 8am, although will keep us on our toes some nights. 

She has now started asking to go into her cot when she has had enough milk. This has been another small heart wrencher. My little booby monster, can go to sleep without being attached to booby and on her own in the cot with me a few feet away! 

She's becoming more independent and showing us want she wants by the day. She's already becoming a strong independent young girl. It's amazing and fascinating to watch and I hope I can help her to continue this path. I'm beginning to see my role as mum as one of cheerleader, medic to pick up the pieces occasionally), and general support staff. I hope she walks with me while I can and goes on so much further than me. She is going to be a strong woman who knows her own mind. Watch out world for here she comes. 

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